October is Suicide Awareness Month
In my work, I have become friends with professionals in the mental health field and in a small way have become involved with the Suicide Prevention Coalition and Suicide Awareness Month. The Coalition sponsors an art show by school children who in an artistic way depict "Why I Want to Live." These children write poems, write stories and draw or paint pictures. Last evening, I was one of three judges of these expressions of life.
As I was looking through the art work, I became overwhelmed with grief and was barely able to keep myself together. I completed my task and left quickly. I was shocked and appalled at myself and I was not sure why I was acting and feeling so weird.
Thankfully, my daughter and grandchildren live close by so I went there just to get my balance back. I had a nice evening with my family and chat with my daughter. When I left for home, I felt a heavy load was lifted from my shoulders and I had my balance back.
I thought seven years was too long to be grieving and feeling the way I did, but as my daughter pointed out, the love connection never leaves and there will always be the loss grief. My daughter was correct, she is wise beyond her years.
I am back...celebrating life.